Semi-Mediocer Poems & Writings

Half-heartedness

2006-09-14T09:36:00.000-07:00

Half-heartedness - by, Alyssa Paige

the sounds are pretty,
don't mean a thing,
but are oh so pretty,
i listen half-heartedly,
only with one ear,
i smile dreamily,
thinking sad thoughts,
pushing back tears,
but listening to,
the pretty sounds,
and smiling all the while,
only to myself,
no one else knows,
and everything's a blur,
only pretty sounds,
and half-heartedness.

Life

2006-09-14T09:20:00.000-07:00

Life - by, Alyssa Murkin

Life's unfair.

But no one ever said it wouldn't be.

So why do we all expect it to be so?

Everyone knows nothing is fair.

So why the disapointment?

Why proclaim "That's not fair!", as if suprised?

Of corse it's not fair.

So just accept it, right?

Easier said then done apperently.

This Old House

2006-09-14T08:21:00.000-07:00

This Old House - by, Alyssa Paige

This old house,
is caving in,
the walls are still standing,
but I feel its weight pushing down.

The confites of this same old place,
day after day,
make me wish it would colaps,
and i could get away,
but it holds a certain emotion,
one which i'll never let go of,
so here I stay.

This old house,
is caving in,
the walls are still standing,
but I feel its weight pushing down.

So many things have happend here,
so many memories I could never forget,
but now in its old age,
and mine as well,
all those times,
seem only to be haunting me.

This old house,
is caving in,
the walls are still standing,
but i feel its weight pushing down.

What I'll do next,
is still a mystery,
when this house will finally fall,
is unknown as well,
I sit in ponderance of this world,
and how all lives will end,
and every minute i feel more and more compressed.

This old house,
is caving in,
the walls are still standing,
but I feel its weight pushing down,
down,
down.

Jealous

2006-09-09T14:20:00.000-07:00

i hate it,

aboslutley HATE it,

that where ever i go,

everyone always has someone,

and i have no one,

every boy and girl,

are holding hands,

are walking along together,

happy,

and i get so infuriatingly jealous,

and it all feels so unfair,

if i can't love,

why should they,

then my heart says,

someday,

but my head says,

never you pathetic loser,

and it makes me want,

to drop to my knees,

turn up to the sky,

and cry,

WHY?

Green Abyss

2006-09-09T14:18:00.000-07:00

this green abyss called earth...

just isn't worth all the fuss...

so why even bother?..

why go on?..

no one knows...

yet look at how many people there are...

in my space...

i need more spcae...

in this green abyss...

called EARTH...

Insignificate

2006-08-05T09:39:00.000-07:00

The sky's so big,
makes me feel so small.

The sun's so bright,
makes me feel so dull.

The grass is so lush,
makes me feel quite drab.

The trees are so tall,
makes me feel like nothing at all.

The birds are so loud,
makes me feel like i'll never be heard.

The world is so vast,
makes me feel completly insignificate.

But someone, somewhere,
is thinking about me,
cares about me.

Or at least that's
what i keep telling myself.

Peachy

2006-08-05T09:37:00.000-07:00

Peachy - by, Alyssa Paige

a flood of
death &
lies for a
moment in
eternity is
peachy.

{{well i wrote this using my magnetic words set. it sounds pretty random, and kind of is, but i'll explain what it means to me. if it means somehting different to you, then so be it.}}

{{if death and lies only come for a moment in eternity, then it's fine. because the world needs good and evil to balace out. sort of like noahs arc i suppose. it took a terible flood, but then after that things were fine. though i suppose that didn't last for very long, considering the affairs going on in the world today. so if a flood of death and lies is upon us, it will soon be fine, for it's only a moment in eternity.}}

The Storm

2006-08-05T09:35:00.000-07:00

The Storm - by, Alyssa Paige

Rain rain
You're here to stay

You comfort me
So beautifuly

The thunder rumbles
As lightening tumbels

The clouds all hover
As if to cover

But I see through
Straight through to you

It's dark too early
But I do not worry

Rain rain
You're here to stay

PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME HERE.

Paranoia Paranoia

2006-08-04T20:25:00.000-07:00

O.o i just felt
someone
TOUCH MY BACK
i swear i did
was it him?
or was it only you
YOU'RE MOCKING ME
god damn it, leave me alone!

Heat

2006-08-04T20:23:00.001-07:00

Heat - by, Alyssa Paige

my bodie is warm
i've had to much sun
i feel as if
i'm radiating heat
don't get to close
i just might burn you
i touch my hand
to my bare skin
it doesn't feel
natural
is there nothing to
releave me
does anyone have
a bucket of
cold water
i want to cover
my face
away from light
keep me
hidden
keep me
cool
enough heat
enough is always
too much
so burry me
in the cool
cool earth.

Up the Hill

2006-08-04T20:23:00.000-07:00

--UP THE HILL--

Walking across the pavment.
Onto grass,
onto gravle.
Go on up the hill.
Must take it all in,
soak up my surrounding.
What to see,
what to find.
LOOK,
empty Gatorade bottle.
LOOK,
bleachers,
and no one to sit.
Lets watch the game.
The shadows play,
racing around one another.
Lood down,
next to the bleachers.
A puffy white dandelion.
Shall I make a wish?
Yes, I shall.
I
WISH
...............

Letters

2006-08-04T20:16:00.001-07:00

How many letters,
have i written to you,
that you have never
read?

More than i can
count on my
fingers.

Brings a tear to my
eye,
that you'll never know,
all the things
i've ever thought about
you,
ever thought to tell
you.

You're on my mind,
almost every waking moment
in my life,
and many in my
nonwaking.

It tugs at my heart,
rips at my soul,
because i know
you'll never know,
never know
what i wish you knew.

Chances have arose,
hovered in the air,
and drifted away,
before i could ever
get the nerve
to spill my guts.

For too,
too long,
I've felt like this,
felt like shit,
for all the wrong
reasons.

How may letters,
have i written to you,
that you have never
read?

Whatever the number,
add one more
to the count.

club LIFE

2006-08-04T20:16:00.000-07:00

-Club LIFE-

I'm a member here,
if only a junior member,
but it makes no difference,
I still had to pay my dues to get in this place,
I still have a right,
I still have a say,
I'm not so innocent,
I'm not so imature,
I can see what this life is like,
regardless to if it can see me,
it's not a pretty sight,
thought neither am I,
nothing is pretty,
but I still have a right,
I still have a say,
I may a junior member,
but I
PAYED MY FUCKING DUES.

The Ride

2006-08-04T20:15:00.000-07:00

highway

stretching ahead

stretching behind

i don't know how long the ride will be

i don't want to know

it would ruin the feeling

the feeling of just driving

watching the trees roll by

sitting in the back seat

my legs curlled under me

the gentle bump of the ride

coaxing my eyes to close.

The Clock

2006-08-04T19:56:00.000-07:00

tick
tock
tick
tock
stop that you
i'm trying to sleep
drip
drop
drip
drop
damn this noise
i've nowhere to keep
nowhere to keep my weary head
no place to fall when all strength is gone
and no one to be there when i need it most
tick
tock
tick
tock
are you my only friend?

Magnetic Poetry

2006-08-04T19:52:00.000-07:00

{{these are some poems i've done useing those magnetic words that all come in a little box. anyway, i'll post a few that i actually like.}}

"the winter sea under
a lazy sun like weak
love crushed by an iron
aching void"

"a light cry
wet in blood
& sadness
in this mad
dream"

"i fall in you through time
delirious beneath you
shining knife"

"worshipe power
delicately and
sweet as the
love of what
is not"

"girl in purple
gorgeous but
repulsive"

"manipulate lazy
summer fingers
on cool bare skin"

Haiku

2006-08-04T19:42:00.000-07:00

Oh what a sweet sound
babbling brook teases me
I wait to here it.

Airplane flys over

cutting through the clear blue sky

I watch it pass by.

I sit all alone

no one here to comfort me

Oh dear what a day.

Much to loud for me
i long for no sound at all
but it pounds my skull.

{{these are some haikus i wrote.}}

Father & Son

2006-05-11T18:34:00.000-07:00

A young child walks over to his father and is trying to tell him something. The father hangs up his cell phone and wipes his hands across his face as if truly exhausted. The child looks at his father expectantly, but the man's head is down in his hands. In this moment I feel sorry for both father and child. But then I turn away and think to myself, "Why should I even care?"

Memories Never Experienced

2006-03-19T17:53:00.000-08:00

{i really wrote this to be a song, but i havn't put the words to music yet. so i figured in the mean time i would post it here. been at work fine-tuning it for a little while, but i'm happy with it now.}

So many memories that never really happened,
That are just inside my head,
Cuz i live so much in my own little world,
So sucluded that i can't even tell fact from fiction anymore,
So over and over I'm forced to relive,
All these memories never experienced.

Empty

2006-02-16T11:39:00.000-08:00

{written on 11-23-05}

Empty skies,

empty like my eyes.

All thoughts are gone.

I need no thoughts.

I need the still,

the cold,

the empty,

the world.

Comforting me,

caressing me,

numbing me.

I am nothing in this world,

just as the single leaf

that falls slowly to the ground

is nothing compared to the huge,

towering tree.

Voices

2006-02-04T15:11:00.000-08:00

Voices through the trees,

Whispering sweet things,

Promising so much,

But in truth what will they bring,

The faintest sound,

That means so much,

Sitting quietly,

I wait to hear,

Disturbance in the distance,

Interfering with my trance,

But still I wait,

Till darkness falls,

Bringing its peaceful spell,

Upon the land,

And I sit and smile,

To myself and to the world.

Evening

2006-01-10T11:26:00.000-08:00

the lights are out,

the Trapeze Swinger plays,

the window is open,

a strong wind blows,

but comes in gentle though the screen,

there's a chill that feels so comforting,

i hear the trees moving outside,

the sky is filled with stars,

filling my heart,

but i must depart.

Music

2005-07-14T19:33:00.000-07:00

(i didn't date this so i can't remember when i wrote it.)

Music plays,

through my head,

one line,

over and over,

pounding at my skull,

till it puts me to sleep.

Everything feels wrong

2005-07-11T20:41:00.000-07:00

Everything feels wrong, my head feels wrong, my stomach feels wrong, the way I walk feels wrong, the way I talk feels wrong, everything around me is just so out of place, all I need is to find the right space, to lay my head, or am I already dead.

i wrote that tonight...

my latest writing

2005-07-05T21:49:00.000-07:00

i wrote this just tonight. it means a lot to me, but that's just because i was there. i hope that it is liked by others too. Enjoy...

I am outside because the rain has stopped, but not throughout the trees, because the tree frogs are calling to me so loudly but not harshly, because the lightning bugs flash in the pale dusk light, because the birds are sweetly twittering their good-nights, because it just feels right.

2005-05-31T19:08:00.000-07:00

this next poem i wrote on, 4-30-05. almost one month ago.
Enjoy

The gray clouds linger,

The leaves rustle mournfully,

The air is chill,

The ground is damp,

Light is nowhere.

NEXT, finally.....

2005-05-27T10:00:00.000-07:00

well, i've got some to post now! im just gonna post my things in the order i wrote them. well, at least the ones in this one notebook i have. anyway, this one i wrote 4-28-05.
ENJOY

The wind blows,

The pollen falls,

It feels poluted,

Rain comes for a day,

We feel clean again.

Short Writing

2005-05-20T11:21:00.000-07:00

i wrote this little story thing last night, like right as it was happening. i just write things to express my feelings. so, this is it. [written 5-19-05]
ENJOY

One evening when it was dark and dreary, I still found beauty and wonder in the world around me. I sat in my desk chair with my lights dimmed and my music playing very softly. My window was cracked open just about two inches. I leaned forward with my forehead propped against the sill, just thinking, when suddenly I realized how wonderful the rain smelled. And how beautiful and harmonious the tree frogs really sounded. I usually don't like dreary weather, but this night was different. It wasn't just dreary, it was a new world. A new world in which I found comfort, joy, and amazement.

First POEM...

2005-05-19T16:51:00.000-07:00

ok, for my fist poem is, well, this poem. it doesn't have a name, but i wrote it April 27, 2005. here it is.
ENJOY

The night sky is black,

Dark clouds stand out even darker against it,

The moon is shrouded in a misty haze,

A single star glimmers,

Silent hope is laid upon all.

Ahem...

2005-05-19T12:58:00.000-07:00

OK, so this is a blog site that i am going to post poems that i wrote for my friends and whatever (or whoever, i should say) can see them. i don't know if i'm very good, but YOU (whoever reads this) tell me.