Half-heartedness

Half-heartedness - by, Alyssa Paige

the sounds are pretty,
don't mean a thing,
but are oh so pretty,
i listen half-heartedly,
only with one ear,
i smile dreamily,
thinking sad thoughts,
pushing back tears,
but listening to,
the pretty sounds,
and smiling all the while,
only to myself,
no one else knows,
and everything's a blur,
only pretty sounds,
and half-heartedness.

Life

Life - by, Alyssa Murkin

Life's unfair.

But no one ever said it wouldn't be.

So why do we all expect it to be so?

Everyone knows nothing is fair.

So why the disapointment?

Why proclaim "That's not fair!", as if suprised?

Of corse it's not fair.

So just accept it, right?

Easier said then done apperently.

This Old House

This Old House - by, Alyssa Paige

This old house,
is caving in,
the walls are still standing,
but I feel its weight pushing down.

The confites of this same old place,
day after day,
make me wish it would colaps,
and i could get away,
but it holds a certain emotion,
one which i'll never let go of,
so here I stay.

This old house,
is caving in,
the walls are still standing,
but I feel its weight pushing down.

So many things have happend here,
so many memories I could never forget,
but now in its old age,
and mine as well,
all those times,
seem only to be haunting me.

This old house,
is caving in,
the walls are still standing,
but i feel its weight pushing down.

What I'll do next,
is still a mystery,
when this house will finally fall,
is unknown as well,
I sit in ponderance of this world,
and how all lives will end,
and every minute i feel more and more compressed.

This old house,
is caving in,
the walls are still standing,
but I feel its weight pushing down,
down,
down.

Jealous

i hate it,

aboslutley HATE it,

that where ever i go,

everyone always has someone,

and i have no one,

every boy and girl,

are holding hands,

are walking along together,

happy,

and i get so infuriatingly jealous,

and it all feels so unfair,

if i can't love,

why should they,

then my heart says,

someday,

but my head says,

never you pathetic loser,

and it makes me want,

to drop to my knees,

turn up to the sky,

and cry,

WHY?

Green Abyss

this green abyss called earth...

just isn't worth all the fuss...

so why even bother?..

why go on?..

no one knows...

yet look at how many people there are...

in my space...

i need more spcae...

in this green abyss...

called EARTH...