Jealous

i hate it,

aboslutley HATE it,

that where ever i go,

everyone always has someone,

and i have no one,

every boy and girl,

are holding hands,

are walking along together,

happy,

and i get so infuriatingly jealous,

and it all feels so unfair,

if i can't love,

why should they,

then my heart says,

someday,

but my head says,

never you pathetic loser,

and it makes me want,

to drop to my knees,

turn up to the sky,

and cry,

WHY?